Driving Lessons - Not

First of all, a very warm welcome to my new follower: Lisamaywalters

Well, today I had a great day and came home feeling really good.

When I pulled up on the drive, my nice neighbour was in the front garden.  He is, I believe, a bit shy, and, I believe, does not find it that easy to make polite conversation with me.  Nevertheless, he did engage with me.

Last year, at about this time, I informed him and his wife that Aidan was going to be having a 16th birthday party in the garden.  I was pre-warning them, just in case of any potential noise.  They were lovely about it and, as it happened all went v well, as expected, and there was nothing to worry about.

This evening, the guy asked me if Aidan was looking forward to driving lessons, as he was going to be 17.

I am an honest person and said that we are not planning on driving lessons.  I think he felt awkward that he had raised the subject and I have pretended for a few hours that everything is OK.

However, everything is not OK.  I feel like a complete failure because I am not giving Aidan driving lessons.

I live in quite an affluent area.  The house we have is lovely, but quite modest relatively speaking.  The reason I strive to live here is for the school and sixth form attached.  Both my children are benefiting from a great education.  However, they are poor in comparison.

Aidan IS the only child not having driving lessons in his friendship group.  One of his friends, who is a lovely gir,l and who cannot be put into some stereotypical category of being an unpleasant girl by any means, not only has had driving lessons, but has also had a car bought for her - a brand new Mini.

This post is not about how I should feel, but how I do I feel.  When I had my wanted children, I wanted to give them at least what I had, perhaps a little bit more.  Reverse is the case.

I feel awful.

In so many ways I they are privileged, but still I feel I failure,
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Epic Fail

Well,the oxtail stew was a disaster!

Maybe, it was cheap/poor quality oxtail; if there is such a thing.  It was purchased from Tesco.

It was tough and there was very little meat that came off the bone.  Despite being cooked all day,with plenty of liquid, in my slow cooker, it didn't want to come off the bone; even the little bit of meat that was there.

I don't usually waste food, but I threw it away and ate something else.  I just didn't  fancy it at all.

Can't win them all.
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